I got a big scolding for shopping too much. I cant help it if I like shopping. I dont see anything wrong. You just emptied half my wardrobe and told me you're giving it away. You told me to check which ones I wanted and when I chose those I wanted, you still said I have to give them away. Then what's the point? So we took out all the new clothes from the basket. Those I bought from iono when but havent worn. It made up half my wardrobe or more. But they're all nice. Stop making me clear stuff out. Stop bringing up the point that my clothes can go up to hundred bucks plus but I rarely use them. I'm happy that way can. Just leave it.

On top of that, I hear arguments nearly everyday. I dont get why I'm so moody now. I havent even started eating the malaria pills. I think when i start consuming them, my journal complains will be wayyyyy worse. SIGHS.

life rocks.
i wish.

but on a happier note, I made chocolate corn flake cookies(:

 my bro and i are having a good laugh over this article
i'm sure the wind was so strong that they didn't even notice
its really funny
my bro got so excited
hahahs
super funny
but it nearly cost 2 lives!
tmr off to christalite methodist(:
WHEE!

 and i am really happy(:
and we forgot to make time stop but nvm. 
hahahs.

ANYWAY, today trackers got JABBED. 
YY screamed like she was giving birth! 
I was wayyyyy better(:
hahahs. okay, self comfort.
thanks to ALL who encouraged me!
fishy alberta rachel huizhen
ian and ian daniel joel
everyone else!
calvin and james who scare the hell out of me,
THANNKS A LOT. 
hahahs
for faking that faint when you walk out of the room!
SCARY TTM CAN!

the happening is a bad show.
but i'm still scared.
hahahs.

back to trackers.
love trackers
LOVE GOD EVEN MORE(:

awesome boot camp even though i got stomach flu on the 2nd night and i went home earlier.
God ministered to me even when i'm at home(:
yupps, so i'm really happy. 
i dont need to be in a church to hear God's voice!
love the people(:
I'm going to PHILIPPINES!
so far i only know that i'm with fishy and joel.
not too sure who else though.
i'm really thankful
T10 got a bunch of very fun 31 people!
barbarian tribe ftw(:
sam emily eastina joel chinwhye ian mel(:
mentors jamie and huizhen(who's our age)
hahahs.
thanks sheryl and huizhen and tessa for looking after me when i was so sick!
thanks to pastor reuben and jonathan who brought me to the clinic and sending me home!
thank GOD for helping me to recover so fast(:
fever was gone ytd
today i still cant eat well but i think that will improve by tmr in church(:
i will just shut up and not talk to anyone tmr.

 first day of school!
hahahs. okay i'll shut up
i went back to school for fun
we decided to go home during house meeting
then a teacher was lecturing us for trying to leave
she kept talking and we coudnt tell her we were graduates
until she finished scolding
hahahs
feel so nostalgic
then walked to coffee bean after watching alvin and the chipmunks(:
another very memorable walk
it reminded us of our nerdy days when i studied for my last few papers
and anton had to mug like crazy for A levels(:
just that this time we were at coffee bean to 'not mug'
hahahs.
love the way things are now(:
life rocks.
then soon there's TRACkers!

 did i mention, i love a particular pair of shoes from ALDO? 
TOO BAD ITS NOT ON DISCOUNT AND ITS 135 bucks]:
The one grace wants is 77, but its the last piece coz its discounted
SIGH
ALDO site dont have pictures of both pairs of shoes
SAD
I WANTTTTT!

 I had an awesome close to 2009 and an amazing start to 2010(:
Met up with Yes09 for the hoobastank concert
went night cycling with the youths
AND I VISITED MY FAVOURITE STADIUM ON 311209!
I love this new year and no one can change that(:

thank you<3 

 Thank You God(: (: (:
I cannot wait for TRACkers to start!

ohohoh.
andand
i did something exciting ytd!
it's called sharing the gospel!
to an old man who randomly started talking to me
IN HOKKIEN
on the bus ride home
i think he was a bit not sane
but nvm, i shared the gospel(:
HAHAHS
happy ttm now(:

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE(:

a very big thank you to everyone who gave me presents(:
i loved every single present, big or small; fat or thin!
I hope everyone love my gifts too! Hahahs.
i feel like the happiest girl on earth now.
hahahs.
this is very very random
I AM NOT GOING TO CLUB ANYMORE
It's a promise and a new year resolution(:

I will read my bible much more and try to take my relationship with God to a deeper level
Maybe its His wake up call for me
First, He reminded me of how He give me instructions
I've swayed from it
Then He told me what will cause me to draw further away
Probably He did that so that I won't continue to walk down the wrong path

I'm really serious about Trackers.
I remember why I'm going and how there will be temptations
I must stand strong(:
I am strong mel. I have a victorious God so I can defeat all temptations(:
SHOOOOOOO.
I loveLOVE my God(:

I want to go to church and worship him the way I used to.
Not feeling guilty in any way.
No I will not and I will take an external and practical step to change that
Thank You Pastor Reuben(:
actually that sentence he said came to me about a minute ago, not at camp
hahahs.
God has a purpose for everything
even when you think you mean nothing to the people in church
you know what?
i dont care.

i like my outside of church friends much more(:
but i love God more.
I meet God in MCI(:
the only reason why I go there(:
and it makes me feel really secure(:

I like these verses the speaker talked about(:

I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all[a]; no one can snatch them out of my Father's hand. I and the Father are one.

John 10:28-30

I earnestly pray that all my problems(that have never left me for years and years) would vanish before the clock strikes 12 to enter the new year]:

I really wish I could have the life of a normal girl.

on a side note, well done to the the awesome awesome performers! elsa, cyrus, my bro, dancers, everyone(:

my mommie dont want me to wear heels to taiwan]:
I'm having a terribly hard time deciding what to bring to taiwan.
i want to meet up with YES people]:
i want a bigger luggage so I can shop A LOT.
i'm really scared to go taiwan
i'm going to miss so many people!
A levels are over but I cant meet people!
There's lots of youth camp stuff to settle
I'm so glad I dont have to do back up singing and worship leading(:
So now its just prayer and group leader
which is just as over kill.
but it's better(:
i must buy kueh lapis today(:
i must pass anton nicholas's book today(:
i must pack my hand carry today(:
i must photocopy my transcript today(:
i must meet serene and fishy today(:
OMGOMGOMG I'M FLYING TMR!
I hope I can watch sea games(:

i'm so thankful for sunday(:
but i dont want to post about it now because my mommie being a nagger.
ARGHS
no mood
but still, thank God(:
OH I WATCHED MY FIRST M18 MOVIE!
NINJA ASSASIN IS NICE OKAY!
THE BLOOD IS LIKE SO FAKE
SO FAKE THAT ITS FUNNY!

For all that has been said and done
A big thank you to everyone who came into my life in the last 4 years(:
Juniors, seniors, teachers, external mentors(:
I will not forget the life lessons you've taught.

I'm rather excited that I've graduated! On the other hand, it's time for me to grow up and move on to adjusting to a new life again.

I'm quite satisfied with this year's 18th birthday(: Thanks everyone of you! Anton, Benedict, Grace, Gel, Cass, Daniel, Kenneth, David, Nick, YANGXUAN WENT "YEA RIGHT ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY". Hahahs. Plus everyone else who remembered(: like fishy who had exams too.
Well, minus the stupid person who stole cassie's phone. Seriously, pickpockets should get a life that has more meaning.

MY MONEY JUST POOFED AND VANISHED!!!!!!]: I must not spend lavishly anymore. I must ask cass and gel out whenever I want to shop so that I'll only end up window shopping(: I need winter clothes! I think mine aint thick enough. But that means i cant dress nicely in taiwan]: This year went by so quickly. maybe because I really enjoyed myself. It's like what people always say. time flies when you're having fun.

TMR'S CONVOCATION. The day the class of 2009 graduates and walk up the stage in our super huge gowns; when we look back at our 8 semesters in the school with our really funky teachers. I had the honour of putting the safety pin on one of the teachers' gown! HAHAHS. I will miss being a student with a uniform. I wonder how life will be like when I'm no longer an NUS High student. Many teachers did not stay with our level for our full 4 years but despite the short time we spent together, they've made their nark in our lives I guess(be it good or bad, it's still counted) I thank God for the new friends, the new opportunities available.

Sunday it's my turn to pray for main service. I'm scared. The last 3 days has been packed. I've been spending the same amount of time with God but it feels like I'm super ultra mega distant from Him. I'm really scared. Right now, the song playing is speaking to me. my heart, your home. let everything I do, open up the door for you to come through, then my heart would be, a place you wanna be in. ARGHS. NERVOUS or because my spirit is not right with God?

Sunday we had vertical marathon. it was quite fun(: Rachel and I went up together! I cant believe we seriously did that. Hahahs. We got high on the free red bull provided. TRUMAN GOT RED. Went home to sleep and watch the informant. TOO DEEP FOR BRAINLESS MEL. Hahahs.

YTD we had swensens after convo full dress rehearsals! One sick bunch. Hahahs. Theo and I took balloons and then rushed back to school for dace rehearsals again. I was super tired ytd. The stupid chirstmas carol movie is SCARY TTM can! it should be NC16. Kids will get scared. Hahahs.

I'm goin to do more meaningful things(: I really wanted to have dinner out today. OHWELLS]:

LEONIDS! CLOUDS CLOUDS GO AWAY PLEASE.

I'm so thankful for this week! It is hectic!(relative to my very very slack lifestyle for about a month)
I'm kind of not used to it?
It ain't any better to have Serene asking me to settle worship
and Annette telling me on Thursday she ain't going to church when last week we said she'll settle prayer this week
There's camp com meeting whereby Annette(our prayer ic, not me) aint going
my brother said I got to roughly present the plans
then there's TRACKERS2010 interview!
it aint helping when I sat for iono how many hours altogether cutting word count to 100+ which still exceeds the limit of 100
Thanks to my guitarist and Daniel for helping me sort out my songs(:
Thanks to Serene(my mentor!) who agreed to take a look at my essays
Thanks to my bro's encouragement when he came back
Thanks to my mommie's coffee(:
AHHHH. You people make my life much better
I flipped through photos today.
Childrens' choir and my maid.
The two things that I hold closest to my heart
The two things that made me realize how things are never permanent
When people say you remember your youth best, I'll say I remember my childhood best
NIGHTS(:

Thank You God above everything(:
He makes all things work out for the best.

 DID I MENTION I'M REALLY PISSED COZ I OVERDOSED ON COFFEE DURING DINNER AND NOW I'M WIDE AWAKE BUT UNABLE TO THINK?!
OMGOMGOMG. I HOPE SOMEONE WILL MSG ME THIS VERY MOMENT TO ENTERTAIN ME!
OMGOMGOMG. I NEED TO SLEEP BECAUSE I'M WATCHING A MOVIE AT 11 PLUS TMR SO I GOT TO GET UP BY 9 AND LEAVE THE HOUSE BY 10!!!!!!
NVMNVMNVM.
I WENT SHOPPING TODAY AND BOUGHT EARRINGS!
I'M MEETING GRACE TMR! TO TALK ABOUT ****
HAHAHAHAHA.
EVEN GRACE IS GOING TO GUESS WRONGLY WHAT **** STANDS FOR!
MUST SHOP WITH ME TMR OKAY(: TO BUY STUFF, LIKE STUFF.
HAHAHS. 
I HAVE ZERO IDEA WHAT TO GET]: 
okay someone called me!
I aint bored anymore(:

 I want to go haji lane! Grace, lets find a day okay(:
Erms, I hav no idea what else to write. I guess my life has been rather mundane in a good way? minus the shopping and all. I lost the bet that I'll save money so I had to treat A again]: It hurts to watch my money fly away. ANYWAYS, I can't wait for everyone's A levels to be over! All the fun I'll have added on to my currently very slack life.
Cass is sick so I cant go to her place today to salvage my nails with gel. Take care Cass(:
MY NOSE IS ANNOYING ME]:
OHYES. I took the circle line ytd! Well, the train's smaller and the rest are about the same. Nevertheless, it's still quite an experience(: Hahahs. Bishan changed a lot. The station at least. I was watching a video on the flash mob at raffles place! Quite cool(:

OKAY THIS POST AINT GOING TO MAKE SENSE TO MOST
I DONT WANT TO REVEAL SO MUCH
BUT I FEEL LIKE CRAPPPPPP TTM
I HATE MAKING BIG DECISIONS
WELL I CONSIDER THIS BIG ENOUGH
MG PRI TO MG SEC TO NUS HIGH
PSLE, BUT I DIDNT HAVE TO CHOOSE A SEC SCH
NO O LEVELS SO I DIDNT HAVE TO CHOOSE A JC
THIS SUCKS BIGBIGBIG TIME
I WANT TO BE A GUY, GO NS AND TAKE MY OWN SWEET TIME TO DECIDE
WHAT EXACTLY DO I WANT WITH MY LIFE
I WISH I KNEW AS CLEARLY AS MY FRIENDS
WHY CANT I BE LIKE THEM
I WISH SOMEONE KNEW HOW THIS FEELING SUCKS
AND THAT EVERYONE WILL STOP TALKING ABOUT IT
ITS MAKING ME PANIC BIG TIME
THIS SUCKS THIS SUCKS THIS SUCKS
BIG TIME